How long will I continue to live this double life?!?!

How long must I?!?!?!

The outer shell is reserved and complacent....but inside, the demons party til dawn.

Wow. A sort of nirvanic feeling seeing everyone around me live it up and enjoy life -- as I'm sitting and just watching it pass me by.

Starving -- for attention; for excitement; for a break; for change.

Indifference. Sadness. Lack of motivation. Sadness.

Defeat.

*sigh*

Ahhhhhhhhhhh!! Do I feel happy? Guilty? Pissed? Relieved? Frustrated? Stressed? Angry? Lax? Destructive?

All of the above....

the only thing i don't like about mobile blogging is that i can't add a title....grr

Mobile blogging....welcome to the age of technology, Nellie =)